tw : ed

i am coming to accept that i have a binge eating disorder. i feel like its not real, like its just an excuse im trying to make for why im fat. eating disorders are only real for skinny people, and even then its encouraged or praised because hey, at least you’re skinny!

i dont know what to do, but im scared about how im continuing to put on weight. i keep ordering clothes online that are too small. sometimes im worried an xl wont fit. a lot of the time i was right to be worried because it doesnt. i dont know how to reverse this, and its upsetting.